Warning venting, below, if you don't want to read whining please don't read.

Nothing changes for me, I still run like shit. I still lose every all in pot I play with the best hand and if there is a single card in the deck that totally fucks me and makes it completely impossible to fold the losing hand its there. Why the fuck do I still play this game it obviously hates me, I run like shit for weeks and months on end, I'm fucking sacred to get all my money in preflop with aces because every time I do I feel like an underdog to pretty much anything. The worst thing that fucking happened to me was winning so much the last couple of years because for some awful reason I keep remembering when AA actually and I flopped sets and when I did the card that hits every draw in the deck didnt come off on the turn. I keep thinking that someday I will go back to running something other than fucking awful and its obviously never going to fucking happen. I have other things to do in my life why do I still torture myself playing poker. Maybe if I was polite and respectful like all the "good" BTP posters god wouldn't hate me so much.

I seriously dont remeber what its like to run good or to have a real rush. A rush for me is flopping a set of 3's after missing like my last 30 sets in a row. Flop comes , the pFR has AK bets, I decide to raise. SB who is a maniac curses, counts out his chips and finally folds, so of course was the PFR. The SB says man why did you have to raise , I was going to push. He pulls his hand out of the muck(it is a home game) and shows and says best hand right? He asks for a turn which was a black seven the river was of course the 4. That is what a rush is for me, pushing out the guy with 3 runner draws who wanted to push because anyone drawing live is going to fucking hit.

So the reasons god hates me. I shouldn't have played poker to begin with. I had a super long day with work and school. I think I won a total of 5 hands all night.

See above hand for one, I seem to run so bad that forcing out the runner runner draws with a set is the only way I can avoid taking the enviable bad beat. I played again with Mike was has pretty much owned me from the beginning. If he has outs he sucks out on me, it doesn't matter if he makes the worst play humanly possible he beats me. If he needs a perfect card to make my nut straight and him a backdoor flush its always there. I have never been sucked out or cold decked more by the same person.

So game is awsome as this game usually is. Couple of other crazy drunk/pot heads.

Fun with Cass, this guy is leaving in 20 min and has been playing beyond reckless. I limp Q he makes it $30 its a 1/2 game and he has done this with crap a bunch of times. I push he intacalls with flop is . He has $164 and I double him up.

Later he has pissed away about $100 of the money I "gave" him. I call his $30 raise with AK flop is 996, he bets $30, I call. Turn J, I check, he checks, river is a K. I bet $40 he pushs with Q9o I call. Win a decent pot

Cass rebuys fo $60. He straddles, I limp 55 so does mike in front of me Vlad directly to my right and Shultz behind me. Cass pushs for $56, mike calls as Vlad is folding I see the ace of hearts. I decide to call too thinking I will likely get to see all 5 cards. Now shultz pushs in for $257 more, this about the most obvious squeeze ever. Mike thinks for a while and fold. I decide to call. Shultz has pretty much exaclt what I put him on AT. Cass has KQ making me an even bigger fav in the side pot. Flop is A99 nice another 60:40 I get to lose.

So more fun this time get to get sucked out nonstop by mike. It was nice to take a big pot off him once but the guy runs like 12er.

I am the button with JT, flop is T . Mike bets $15, I make it $50. Turn is a K check, I check. River is a J check, check. He has A7 well played chase the ass end draw and just it down when you get there.

Worst hand of the night. I have 88 in the Sb Mike makes it $14 I callflop is 7 . Mike bets $20, I smooth call. Turn is a 5, check check. River is another 5. I bet $30 he raises to $100. I call and he has 75o.

Final hand, I have $54 left I move in blind in a straddle pot. No one knows I'm blind, mike looks at one and calls with A4o. I have QJ flop is AKJ, like always I dont improve.

I really wish I could just quit for good. I really hate poker when I run like this weeks and weeks of watching idiots beat me with anything. Never getting a hand at the right time and when I do losing when I put money in ahead. I got the rest of whats left of my tater cash roll. On the way to work today I'm putting it in my living expenses account. I think I'm just going to stop playing cards for the quarter. I really wish I could just quit forever but whenever I take a month off I start to get the itch and I think back to how I used to win at this game and decide to start playing again.

Well I got it all back last night and tonight. I would like to say it was all skill and I out played everyone but sometimes luck is a major factor. I won a 2 buy in pot with KK vs AA allin preflop. I had KK with flop is 3 hearts turn brick, river heart. Ship it to the suckout. Then the guy has like $30 left, I get AA he gets QQ and I win. That was last night.

I am still ice cold flopping sets I went 17 more without flopping one, putting the streak at 0 for 53. I really shouldn't track this stuff but I just cant help it, my mind uses it as a way to see if I am playing like shit or running like shit. Timing really is everything in poker, I finally flop a set 88 on a 89T flop, UTG bets, I raise he smooth calls. Turn is a 9, he leads again, I smooth call. River brick he pushs, with QJ I call.

One ugly hand, I get AA in LP, mp makes it $2, 2 callers, I make it $10, PFR calls. Flop is KJT. He checks, I bets $15 he calls. Turn 7, I push he calls with JJ. I gave him bad odds preflop so I guess I cant be to upset, but it still sucks.

I will be playing more later today but first off to the gym.

Home game last night. Weird game, I won money which is good.... I played a couple hands really well and a couple hands I could have played better.

Hands I played well. I folded a set to Teddy after I turned the set raised the turn, he had a OOSD + FD he hit his straight on the river, lead into me $75 and I mucked.

I bluffed Mitch in a PLO8 hand, I flopped a big draw, straight wrap and the 2nd nut low draw. I knew he had the low draw only, turn and river were big cards and I bluffed $120 into him on the river and he mucked an overpair.

Flopped a set of 5's on a 952 with 2 hearts board, lead it, got 2 callers. Turn ofsuit K, I lead again, both call again. Shultz who is notorious for playing 92 and winning with it, calls for a 2 on the river. Non heart 2 on the river, I check, he bets $75, I CR to $175 praying he has a 2. He missed his FD and folds but i got extra money out of it by letting him represent what he was calling for.


Hands played poorly
Flopped top pair and an OOSD with 2 diamonds, I bet from the button and get 2 callers. Turn is Kd checks to me and I make a stupid bet. Teddy CR I fold.

I flop a set of 6 on a Q63 board. I lead into schultz who calls, turn is a K I check he bets. River K, I check again which was awful, I knew he had a Q and there was no way he bets the end unless it just happened to be KQ. He checks behind with Q9, but he would have called $35 on the river.


Couple ugly suckouts.
I limp AQ, Greg makes it $6 he has $60 to start the hand. 4 people call, I limp raise to $26, he calls. Flop is J44, I push he calls with QJ.

I straddle for $4, greg makes it $12 to go. I look down at . Flop is AT7, I check, he checks behind. Turn is a 5. I lead $16,Greg calls. River is a 4, I lead $20, he raises to $40, I just calls and he shows 23o. for the wheel.

I get to suck out
I call a raise with flop is Q7 . Mike bets, I thought it was a CB, so I just call thinking I will steal it on the turn. Turn is . I check he bets $50 ,now I know its not a CB. River straight flush baby, I lead $75, he calls. He had 76 for a flopped 2 pair.

just wanted to let you know i'm not ignoring your ims or anything. every time you write i'm banging the asian haha.

Well bodog $50 had been going really well until last night. Again when I was on a good run I didnt want to post on here saying "I'm running good." I know its stupid but I superstitious like that. Well last night was a pretty short and brutal session.

I open raise to $2 with QQ, dood who just lost a big pot 2 hands earlier with QJ vs KQ on a queen high flop pushs for $30 more. I call and he has AA and I don't suck out . Grrrrrr

I pretty much missed every flop, the one set I flopped. I limp utg with 88, 5 way to the flop. Flop is 4. Sb who is a retard leads $3, I raise to $9. He nearly times out and calls. Turn . I really cant imagine a worse card in the deck. Check check, river brick. He pushs I muck.

I have been getting hammered at school, I really shouldnt play when I'm tired. I play way to passively when I'm tired, there were a couple pots that normally I would have stolen but being tired and passive I didn't.

Overall things have been going well. i have played a little over 6k hands and am up 16+ buy ins before last night is was almost 18.

I don't believe your winrates.

This is not the whining post I had promised sorry. Today was a really weird day I had a couple really tough hands

I got all in on a 8742 board with 87 vs AA and river was an ace one stack gone.

I raise get called by sb and one other player. Flop is A . Check check I bet, SB check mins, I push he snap calls with AA.

I raise flop is T92, I get all in vs 99 and 22, river T ship it.

Last night I was down 1 buy in, today in about 700 hands plus 8 buy ins. The odd thing is I dont feel like I'm running super hot even with thought winning 8 buy ins in a night would say otherwise. I havent flopped a ton of sets 4 in my last 1200 hands, I havent had a ton of big pairs either. I had a couple people nice enough to give me chips. My AA vs AQ on a 449 flop and he check raised all in. My aggression has been winning me a ton of pots more than anything else.

My original goal was to get to 20 buy ins for $100 NL which I pretty much hit tonight. I think I may shoot for an extra $400 to buy myself a WII first, plus I am running so well at $50 that I really don't want to change anything.