by iceman5 » Mon Sep 19, 2005 1:26 pm
My poker game is a complete funk. No, thats not a stong enough representation. The fact of the matter is that I SUCK right now. There no other way to say it. I SUCK.
Ever since ending the $5/$10 project, Ive been playing increasingly worse. I dropped 2-3 stacks at $5/$10 with horrible play. At the same time I was playing well at $2/$4 and was frustrated at not getting enough $5/$10 tables so I just started playing $2/$4 all the time.
I was playing ok, for a few days then started overplaying everything. I got busted with TPTK a couple times when Stevie Wonder could see I was beat. I ran into a lot of sets against guys with half stacks so I pushed when I shouldve folded. I won some money back and then it started again.
I had gone from having 2 losing weeks all year to losing all 3 of the last 3 weeks (and losing BIG). Ive never had a losing month in my career, but I am down this month with no hope of turning it around. Im up a total of about $400 in the past 7 weeks which is so bad for me its hard to believe, but its due to horrible play. Im down about 6 stacks right now at varying stakes in the past 4-5 days. Im down around $5K in the past 30 days. All these numbers are approx.
Ive moved down to $200 NL and lost 2 stacks today and when i post the hands you wont believe it.
Now I try to sit back and put it in perspective. OK, Im +$400 for the past 7 weeks. This sucks, but its still a profit, so I should be able to look at like 7 weeks of wasted time and nothing else. I dont have a huge whole to dig out of bankroll wise in the past 7 weeks, or anything like that. 4 times in the past 10 days, Ive come to the conclusion that I need to just stop bluffing, stop making moves on people and just go back to my roots and play tight aggressive poker and pound people when I have a hand and eveything will be fine. Then 10 mins later I make some horrificly stupid bluff. Its like I cant control myself.
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Last night playing $400NL. UTG limps, 2 other limpers and i raise to $20 in the BB with JJ. UTG calls.
Pot $50 or so. Flop KT4 with 2 hearts. I bet $40 and he calls.
Pot $130. Turn is 9 of hearts. I have the Jh. I bet $125. Why? Because I suck. he calls.
River is another 9 and I push. He calls with T9. OK, hes an idiot, but Im worse. I turn off my computer and sleep it off.
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I get up this morning and decide to play $200NL and to not bluff no matter what. Ive been making $4-$5K per month at $200NL for months. Back to basics for me.
2 limpers and I raise to $10 with JJ. They both call. Flop 883 with 2 spades. I bet $30 and a guy goes all in for $180. I call and he has Q8. Im an idiot but at least this wasnt one of my stupid bluffs.
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Battle of the blinds. Im the SB with AT. BB min raises and I call.
Flop 553 with 2 hearts. I chedck. He bets $4. I call.
Turn another low hearts. I check, he bets$8 I check raise to $24 with nothing.
River brick. I bet pot and he calls with a flush. Im an IDIOT. Why cant I stip this? My patience is gone. That was always my strong point.
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I limp KK UTG. another limper and then BB raises to $6. I reraise to $26 and BB calls.
Pot $60. Flop T86 and he leads for $20. I call.
Pot $100 Turn 2. He bets $40 and I call.
River ace. Check/check. He has AQ. Im an idiot. Why do I want to bluff with nothing but Im afraid to raise when I have a hand?
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MP raises to $7, a call, I reraise to $22 with QQ in the BB. I normally dont reraise QQ.
MP pushed for $110. Who DOESNT think he has AA / KK? I call anyway because IM AN IDIOT.
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Somewhere around here I turned the computer off and went to bitch to my wife about how bad I suck. I wait about 20 mins and then decide to play alittle more. I decide that if I lose because of bad play again, that Im DONE. Just sit and wait for your hands I tell myself. Its been working for 3 years.
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I limp AK, MP raises to $10. I call.
Flop 776. I check, he bets 1/2 pot and I check raise him. WHY IN GODS NAME DO I KEEP DOING THIS? He calls.
Turn J.
I check....he bets small, I check raise all in. He calls with AA.
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Why the hell would i check raise all in there when I wont even raise with KK in that other hand? When I have a real hand i play conservatively because I dont want to lose a big pot and I just let him bet into me knowing Im ahead, but when I have nothing I bluff my money away.
Im telling you that I cant stop doing it. At least 5 times, Ive sat back and decided to just pretend like i was starting from scratch. Forget about the lost money. Just start from zero and play tight aggressive poker. Fold too much...thats fine. Overbet your big hands...if they fold they fold. And then I do the same things again.
I honestly AM very close to quitting completely. Ive still have more than enough in my roll to play any stakes up to $10/$20 NL, but right now, I couldnt beat $25NL. I really dont remember how to play good poker. At least I can admit that to myself.
There are some other hands that are so bad, I cant stand to post them. All bluffs. Some of them may have actually been +EV plays if the other guy didnt catch a miracle card at the exact wrong time....but the point is that ive been winning for years without this LAG play and theres no need for me to do it now, but I cant stop.
Ive never been this demoralized about poker. I really dont want to quit because its been good money fairly easily for so long now, but things have obviously changed. I probably wont be around here for a while until I get my head straight again.
iceman5
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