Back to Drinking??

[Billy Zoom]

I will be sober for 12 years on April 5th. I stopped drinking after I turned 30, and that was after 12-14 years of lots and lots of beer, and the occasional Jack Daniels. I could drink a lot, and still function. Functioning Alcoholic I think I was. Even my wife did not know I was drinking just about every day. This was not my imagination, she has told me she was unaware.

My tolerance level was extremely high, and I was lucky I did not get any DUI's, nor did I get the "beer belly" that most of my friends now have.

I do not go to AA, although I did go to a handful of meetings when I first stopped, I quit cold turkey on my own.

Anyway, now that I am over 40, I am having thoughts of having an occasional glass of wine with my wife. I have not had one drop of alcohol in these 12 yrs (except for a few Nyquil [<- sp?] shots for a cold), so I feel it will be just the one glass. My reason for this is the same as anyone else for having an occassional drink, makes you feel good. Maybe I am wrong in this thinking and should just stay sober - which is probably what will happen.

Anyone out there a recovering Alkie like me, and gone back to the occasional cocktail?

Just wondering. Thanks.

[emmasdad]

Christ sakes man, if it aint broke don't fix it. Stay off the sauce. What is the best thing that can happen? You enjoy a drink with friends? What is the worst thing? You go back to hiding things from your wife, maybe this time get a DUI, maybe kill someone, and you already know that you are an alcoholic. Your words.

Starting drinking again is ultra -EV.

[Rhound50]

I think this is an easy choice, like emmasdad says. Addiction is addiction, it doesnt go away with time. In your situation there is a lot to risk and not a lot to gain.

[Billy Zoom]

In my heart, I know what I should do (or shouldn't do).

Every few years, I get that "what's the big deal?" attitude and need someone - preferably a stranger like you - to slap me in the face and tell me "WTF are you thinking?"

I appreciate the honesty.

Guess I will stick with caffeine as my "drug of choice".

Here to another 12 yrs - at least!

BZ

[JJSCOTT2]

Find a meeting, and go to it. The tone of the post makes me think you've already made up your mind.

[Felonius_Monk]

[Kuso]

if you have to ask, you know the answer.

nice one on the 12, and i am sure you look forward to 12 more (and then some).

[JJSCOTT2]

In all seriousness though, congratulations on 12 years sober. I've never had a problem with alcohol, but let's just say I know how hard it can be to kick an addiction and 12 years is just amazing, I challenge you to keep it up and stick with it.

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